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Rita's Story - Crocheting Through Grief

2011-12-06T17:06:00.000-05:00

Rita is a woman that discovered this blog while touring the vast world wide web. She contacted me this week to tell me, and Close Knit readers, about her experience coping with grief and depression after the loss of her daughter.

I have played around with crochet for many years but, I never gave it enough time to be any good at it. July 22 2008 my daughter my boo died she was 31 years old my grief and anguish were unbearable I stayed in my bedroom for a year~ alone I isolated I wanted nothing to do with the outside world that managed to go on without my daughter when I could not. So I picked up my crocheting again I would sit for hours just crocheting.. to others this looked like an obsession to me it was therapy ..I was so depressed I did not leave my home.. I ordered everything I needed on-line. For every stitch I made there was a tear yet somehow crocheting soothed my soul my heart Its over three years later now since Boo died I still crochet and when life becomes unbearable I pick up my hook and soon my pain is lessened there will always be a part of me that my daughter took with her and my heart still cries for her.

Judi Rebecca (My Boo) June 19 1977 - July 22 2008

Save on One of a Kind Show 2011 Admission

2011-10-17T06:06:00.000-04:00

Come shopping at the One of a Kind Show this holiday season in Toronto! Save on admission with this coupon code courtesy of Vintage Baby Revival. Also, follow Close Knit and visit again for an opportunity to win tickets to the show.

Don't know what the One of a Kind Christmas Show & Sale is? It's the very best of handmade by local artisans. You won't want to miss this show. There is so much to taste and experience and you will be inspired by the talent. Please stop by booth D-07 and visit Vintage Baby Revival for beautiful knits for babies, toddlers, and young children.

-LadeeBee xxf

A Belly Laugh a Day

2011-10-16T01:36:00.002-04:00

One of the things that helps me get through life is the ability to have at least one good belly laugh every day. As some of you reading this blog may already know, I have depression. It really is a good thing that there is a lot of humour in my home and plenty of good laughs. My partner has the same off-balance sense of humour and we enjoy lots of gut tightening, tear inducing, barely able to breathe laughing episodes together. Mostly I'm the one that gets out of control. Once I watched Dave Chappelle's stand-up and missed half his show because I was laughing at his joke from five minutes ago.

Recently my mood has been going down toward the deeper end. I'm not feeling much energy, sadness comes on for no apparent reason, my sleeping patterns get all funky, and I have a lot of doubts about what the hell I am doing with my life. This past week I was really questioning my choice to work for myself and feeling it was a stupid decision and I was looking at job postings that I might be qualified for. My partner works full-time and now every evening he goes to school to work towards finishing his degree. I don't see him as much and we haven't been getting those belly laughs in. I realise that is what I am missing! I need a good laugh every day. I need someone who gets my sick sense of humour and doesn't look at me all sideways with a silent question. I'm not saying laughing makes it all better, but it definitely helped me this week.

Louis CK performing in Toronto, Canada Saturday October 15th, 2011
I broke the rules and took this photo, and no I did not film him! Just wanted a pic.
Please don't be mad Mr. CK

One of my favorite comedians is currently on tour and we were able to score some tix to go and see him. We saw Louis CK live! I was only 8 rows away from the stage. Let me tell you, it was Awe-some. The opening act was Steven Page from the Canadian iconic band, the Barenaked Ladies. What a treat to hear him perform with his acoustic guitar. Tonight was exactly what I needed.

I think that doing my own art or watching a talented individual performing theirs is a helpful way to deal with depression when it starts to rear its ugly head. What experiences have you had lately that has helped improve your mood?

Muskoka Cruise with Debbie Bliss

2011-09-14T02:52:00.000-04:00

Friday September 9, 2011
Debbie Bliss Dinner Cruise
Gravenhurst, Muskoka

This past weekend I went on yet another knitting adventure. I joined the well-known knitwear designer, Debbie Bliss, on a dinner cruise in Ontario's beautiful Muskoka region. It was good to see Debbie again and to meet and chat with her daughter, Nell. Thirty-five Debbie Bliss fans each received a gift bag with a book of Debbie's latest patterns.

Debbie signs my book!

I had so much fun and can't remember the last time I was that excited. Debbie is really easy to talk to and so approachable. If you are a fan I highly recommend taking advantage of an opportunity like this.

The second day I attended a lecture by D.B. She discussed a little bit about her background, her design process, and her current designs. We had a chance to play with her samples, try them on and even model them for one another. Of course, shopping was part of the day.

Before heading home we made sure to stop in at an awesome fibre arts shop and mill in Gravenhurst, Gateway Fibreworks.

Shop and Mill

A selection of beads and findings, hand dyed wool for spinning,
natural alpaca rovings, felting fibres, yarn , fabric and art kits are available
to satisfy your fibre, sewing and bead crafting needs.

The entrance to the retail store. Beautiful knit shawl in natural
alpaca and printed with leaf motif.

A cozy nook to relax and work on projects within the shop.

The yarn wall. Gateway has their own yarn that is spun in house.

Alpaca is being pre-drafted in preparation for spinning.

A single ply wound on a bobbin sits ready in the machine.
Tours of the mill are possible but you must call to request.

What's your favorite yarn shop? Leave the name and link in the comments section below so that I can enjoy a virtual tour of your favorites!

Next week I will be sharing another Ontario knitting adventure...so check back!

Book Review: Knits to Give by Debbie Bliss

2011-09-04T17:48:00.001-04:00

Here she goes again! The hard working knitter extraordinaire, Debbie Bliss, adds another book to her growing catalogue of patterns. This one is just in time for you to be inspired to begin your holiday knitting projects. It's got something for everyone in your life: men, women, children, and pets!

Knits to Give 30 Knitted Gift Ideas - Debbie Bliss
Hardcover $30.47 CAD on Amazon.ca
Release Date: Sept 5th, 2011
image: © Penny Wincer

The book kicks off with Debbie reminding us that our hand knits deserve to beautifully wrapped. She gives nice suggestions on how you can achieve simple yet memorable gift packaging.

If you've ever been curious about knitting with beads, the "Beaded Clutch Bag" is a good place to start for a fool proof tutorial. A large chevron pattern is incorporated into the design of this elegant clutch you'll want to take with you on all of your special events at holiday time.

"Beaded Clutch Bag"
image: © Penny Wincer

Lace and cables are prominent design features in the "Gifts for Her" section of the book including patterns for "Covered Bangles", "Lacey Stole", "Cabled Arm Warmers", and the "Ribbon Tied Belt".

Stripes and simple stitches make up the main design features in the "Gifts for Him" section. My favorites are the "Rice Stitch Scarf" and "Moss Stitch Tie".

Bunny Booties
image: © Penny Wincer

The book is chalk full of gorgeous knits for babies and kids. "Bunny Booties" would pair nicely with the "Garter Stitch Jacket" for gifting to the latest addition of your family. A "Ladybird Backpack" is a fun knit sure to be loved and admired by young school children.

Ladybird Backpack
image: © Penny Wincer

The last chapter, "For Home", has some practical items to knit up for anyone on your list. For instance the "Tea Cozy Wrap", "Moss Stitch Table Mats", and the "Hot Water Bottle Cover". Just for fun there is a sweet pattern for a "Pot of Pansies".

Tea Cozy Wrap
image: © Penny Wincer

"Knits to Give-30 Knitted Gift Ideas" by Debbie Bliss is definitely a book of patterns worth adding to your library. Now is the time to start those knitted gifts for the holidays and this book has patterns to satisfy any knitter.

Happy Knitting!

-LadeeBee xx

Pot of Pansies
image: © Penny Wincer

What Kind of Crafter are You?

2011-08-28T05:14:00.001-04:00

Life as a Full-Time Crafter

2011-07-11T08:45:00.000-04:00

Feel I owe you an explanation as to my whereabouts over the last little while. If you follow me on Twitter you'll know I haven't been far away. After about a month of not posting anything on my blog I have been thinking about how neglectful I've been of Close Knit almost daily. Well, I can finally be guilt-free!

About two years ago I quit my job and began working for myself. I haven't got savings or lots of credit, but I have managed to make it work. My partner has a job, not fantastic pay, but he can manage the rent (phew). Crafting for a living is tricky, so I have to wear a lot of hats to make it work. I teach crafty workshops, participate in the odd craft show, do two major craft shows per year, provide childcare for some families in my neighbourhood, keep two online shops, and work at a craft market up the street from my house. It is crazy busy and it means I essentially work all the time - no complaints, I LOVE what I do!

Being a childcare provider is a skill I carry with me from my experience in the workforce. I studied Early Childhood Education and have my degree in psychology. I am intrigued by infants and young children and I am very good with them. I spend snippets of time here and there throughout my week happily getting my baby fix, riding bikes with preschoolers, and crafting with the very young.

My two shops are LadeeBee Supplies and Vintage Baby Revival. LadeeBee is vintage buttons, handspun yarn, and lately a little bit of cheerful jewelry. Vintage Baby focuses on knits for kids 0-4 and knit scarves for women. Running a shop involves photography, listings, updating, promoting, and hopefully filling orders.

Dahlia Ear Blooms
Available at LadeeBee Supplies

LadeeBee Supplies is a like a hobby for me. My hobby is very similar to my actual work. I love to make new things, try new things and test them out on the market. The above Dahlia Ear Blooms have been my latest success. Vintage Baby Revival represents work that has evolved over time into a line of high-end knits for young ones that I am really proud of.

Hand Knit Wool Poncho
Available at Vintage Baby Revival and the One of a Kind Show and Sale in Toronto

Organic Cotton Tunic and Matching Hat

In addition to my crafty work I have a 15 year old son. He is a wonderful person and I am always inspired by his energetic youth. People think I was a baby when I had my son because I may look younger than I am, but I was 19 (not a baby, but close).

Niagara Falls '08

My home is dusty (from all that fibre!) and chaotically organised. Just about every inch of my home has got one of my projects in various stages of completion (my poor family!). Also, I've got furniture for my big show at the One of a Kind, props, inventory and the like stored in all locations of my two bedroom apartment.

So that is what I have been up to and that's a bit of what life is like as a full-time crafter. I am bound to drop a ball here and there, but I'll always pick 'em up!

Inspired by Sil

2011-05-20T10:52:00.000-04:00

I met Sil Frebrian, owner of Batavia by Sil on the wonderful world of Twitter. We finally met in person when we were placed as neighbours in the Rising Stars neighbourhood at the One of a Kind Spring Show and Sale 2011. I spent five days staring at and drooling over her upcycled hand made bags. Her designs are so sweet and you can totally see they are made with passion. Each bag is truly unique-no two are ever the exact same. She adds so many beautiful touches to her bags such as embroidery, hand made wooden buttons, applique, and braided handles.
After the spring show I went home and began work on my own bag. While mine is a very straightforward design I was inspired by Sil's work!

I made this pattern freehand. Project inspired by my neighbour at the One of a Kind Spring Show 2011, Batavia by Sil. I admired her bags for the entire show. She creates gorgeous clutches and purses with reclaimed fabrics and adds her own hand made wooden buttons.

Outer fabric purchased at Value Village.

Button by the Woodlot purchased at the One of a Kind Spring 2011

Lining fabric from Diana Brugos acquired in a trade. This is vintage seersucker with a light floral pattern.
One big inside pocket.

Nice and roomy to carry all of my knitting projects!

Rebecca's Story

2011-05-10T11:31:00.000-04:00

Hello, my name is Rebecca and I can’t sit still. When I'm not reading, knitting or making jewelry, I spend a lot of hours dancing in my own living room, my den, my kitchen, with my earbuds in and the volume on my iPod turned up. My wife is always tickled to catch me doing it. Our dog and two cats are perpetually confused and I can only imagine what my neighbors think.
I wonder what they all would think if they knew I do it so that the energy inside doesn't build up and push me around the bend.
Like a lot of people, my history with depression precedes my birth: two of my great-aunts were in psychotherapy for most of their adult lives. My father was formally diagnosed with clinical depression in 1991 and had been hospitalized when he was in high school. My childhood was filled with hugs goodbye and "see you later, sweetie. Daddy's got a doctor's appointment." No one told me until I was much older that the doctor he was seeing was a therapist.
My own symptoms began when I was fifteen – I couldn’t get to sleep at night. For the majority of my high school years, I attended class on between one or two hours of sleep every day. Food issues soon followed – I would become nauseated and purge everything I'd eaten. I’ve never called it insomnia or bulimia because, to me, they were merely recurring symptoms of a much larger problem. It's normal for adolescents to experience high energy and low self-esteem, but children with depression suffer everything in the extreme. On a good day, my energy could have kept Paris lit for a week and my self-esteem hovered somewhere around -50. I felt absolutely worthless.

I stowed my depression away where no one could see it. It helped that there was always another crisis going on nearby to hide behind: a friend who was having a manic episode and needed rescuing, another friend who was having a sexuality crisis and needed comforting, a sibling with autism who was being bullied, a parent who was leaving, a parent who was dying. I invested myself completely in caretaking duties – being a bulwark for the people in my life who were swept up in their own turmoil - and, for a time, it helped me to forget my own just under the surface.
Later, chasing scholastic success replaced the crises and I poured all of the dark energy I’d been trying to ignore into getting a good education. Finally, when I graduated with my B.A. in Journalism and came out to a rapidly shrinking job market, there was no place left to hide it.
Crafting came into my life at this time. After graduation, I had a seasonal job at a metaphysical shop which also sold beads and bead findings. When I wasn't scanning online ads for reporters or writing freelance pieces, I started making my own pearl and jade jewelry to wear on job interviews.

From necklaces, I made the leap to malas -- long strands of Buddhist prayer beads I would wear around my neck or wrist. After I spotted several "wearable collage" necklaces for sale in one of my favorite coffee shops, I made another jump to decoupaging wooden pendants for myself and my family and friends. After I met my wife and moved to Chicago, I taught myself to knit partly inspired by communities like Geek Crafts, partly to have something in common with my new mother-in-law and also to give myself something to do on the long train rides between home, school and work. I also think I wanted the challenge of mastering something new when the old feelings were so hard to master alone.

I've made a lot of progress in the past year. I've been seeing a counselor first through my university and then through a center downtown. Having an objective third party to talk with on a regular basis has done me a world of good. I've also found that when I have a project in mind and am working on it -- whether it's beading, painting, hunting for sticker sheets and charms or just imagining a certain concept in my head -- it pushes my demons into the background.

Rebecca has shared her story with Close Knit readers but writes about her own experiences mostly over at her blog Black Mood Craft.

Top Six Strategies for Shopping the Knitters Frolic

2011-05-02T19:52:00.000-04:00

This past Saturday I had an opportunity to attend this year's Knitter's Frolic put on by the DKC at the Japanese Cultural Centre in Toronto. It is a convention of Ontario yarn shops, wool growers and artisan spinners all selling fibre, yarn, buttons and all the goodies that a knitter could dream of. When I arrived at 9am the line-up was way down in the parking lot and growing by the second!

My friends and I were smack dab in the middle of the line. Look at the end of the line.
We enjoyed admiring the parade of knitwear as we waited.

Looking towards where the lineup begins and as you can see more frolickers are arriving!
My friend said her heart was racing with excitement and I have to admit my palms were a little sweaty in anticipation.

Top Six Strategies for Shopping at the Frolic

Know the patterns you want to make and buy the yarn accordingly
Go and buy what you're heart tells you to buy and then figure out what you'll make with it later
Buy only the deals. Lots of great yarn on sale at the frolic!
Go for unique and different. Artisans, small farmers, and handmade buttons rule the day.
Hit the booths you know and love first.
Bring a friend who is equally addicted to fibre and will not only encourage you to buy what you are considering, but to buy more than one. (thanks Lisa for this one)

Strategy #4 is my favorite. I really like to find something that I wouldn't be able to access just anywhere. I like getting a hold of some nice hand spun yarn. When we were waiting in line a friend was showing off her scarf made from some awesome hand spun.

Check out the needle felted mushrooms in the yarn! This yarn is by StudioLoo and available at Rose Haven Farm Store.

Proud Knitter

I was inspired to pick up my own skein of StudioLoo Yarn

I chose this one for the colours and the natural walnut shell halves that were mixed in to this yarn.

Cotton fabric was also incorporated into this hand spun.

I employed strategy number 2 and 3 for my next purchase. Three skeins of hand dyed cotton. This yarn was half price. Original price: $17 per skein! Great deal!!

I am totally loving orange lately.

I only had a limited amount of time for shopping because I was teaching a crochet class across town and it would take at least an hour to reach there by transit. I felt like an hour and 15 minutes was just the right amount of time for me to get through the show, take some great photos and to feel satisfied. I would've loved to stay longer but my bank account thanks me for the short stay! My next post I'll feature some of the most unique vendors with lots of yummy shots of yarn and buttons for you to drool over!

Janine's Story

2011-04-27T10:33:00.000-04:00

The following blog post comes from guest blogger, Janine. More on Janine can be found at the Unfinished Project Project, "a blog about (eventually) getting things done."

I've had depressive episodes for more than thirty years now, on and off, although it took quite a while for me to realise what they were. The first episode came when I was in my final year of high school. I thought I was just burnt out and unmotivated, and did nothing about it. There was another bout in my final year at university, which I put down to similar reasons, but the crunch came about seven years ago, when I suddenly had a nervous breakdown; in the course of one evening I went from feeling reasonably normal, if a bit down (which is not unusual for me) to thinking of suicide. It was the most frightening experience of my life. I felt as though my personality had splintered and I had no real sense of who I was; I guess that's what is meant by disassociation.

I got help pretty quickly – drugs and therapy – but what did me as much good as anything was knitting. Although I was still going to work and seeing my friends, I didn't feel that I was functioning normally. For many weeks, I spent hours sitting on the floor knitting obsessively. While it didn't stop the distressing thoughts, it seemed to give me something else to focus on. I think the repetitive nature of knitting is soothing, and I found satisfaction in being able to make something. I'd stopped eating and doing other normal things, but I could still create, and that felt like a link to my old self.

It took several weeks before I began to resume any kind of normality, and a couple of years before I felt completely back to normal. I've had another couple of depressive episodes since then – work and family problems are definite triggers – but they haven't been as severe.

When I was diagnosed as clinically depressed it was almost a relief, as it helped explain what was wrong with me. From the start I decided to be pretty open about it – it's not as though it's easy to hide, after all. One thing that was heartening to me personally, but rather appalling on a wider level, was that many of my friends have had depressive episodes too, many of them recurring and severe. One of my friends has been sacked for having depression; if she'd had cancer or multiple sclerosis or any number of other illnesses, she'd have been offered help and sympathy. Instead, she was given the boot.

I'd like to see depression talked about more and not regarded as something shameful to be hidden. I think more people should know about depression, and how pervasive it is – it's not something that sufferers can just 'snap out of'. If it were that easy, there would be not depressed people!

I think it's also important that people know that those who have depression, or have had it in the past, are not 'weird' or abnormal. It's just a disease – albeit a serious one – and people can recover from it.

Six Steps to Kool Aid Dyed Wool - A Tutorial

2011-04-26T01:52:00.002-04:00

Whatcha Need

large microwave safe bowl or container
plastic garbage bag
selection of Kool Aid envelopes
plastic coat hanger
microwave
wool to dye
rubber gloves
old crappy towel
rag

Step One

Submerge the wool in a container of cool water. Make sure wool is soaked through. Drain water, squeeze off excess water and lay out as pictured on plastic garbage bag.

Merino wool and Kool Aid envelopes

Step Two
Open packets of Kool Aid in your chosen colours and sprinkle on your wool. Don't mix the colours over one another too much as you can muddle the colours and end up with brown.

Experiment with different colours, its lotsa fun!

Step 3
Put on your rubber gloves and gently rub Kool Aid into the wool so that it dissolves and disperses the colour. At this point you may want to turn the wool over to the other side and repeat steps 1-3. Sometimes I leave it as is for less intense colour.

Step 4
Heat the wool in your microwave safe bowl on high for approx 5 min or until the wool is completely heated through. Should be steamy when you pull it out of the microwave.

Steamin' pile of Merino

Step 5
When wool has cooled enough to safely hold in your hands, squeeze out excess water into the sink. Lay out the wool as before but now onto an old towel. Not much of the dye will leak out at this time, but use an old towel just in case! Now roll in the towel and press.

Step 6
Drape wool over the plastic coat hanger and hang on the shower curtain rod, away from fabric, and allow the wool to air dry. Open a window if possible to improve air circulation. Once in a while squeeze excess water that settles into the ends of the wool. Ready to spin when thoroughly dry!

Share your Kool Aid dyed wool with Close Knit readers by posting links in the comments below.
xxLadeeBeexx

Sit and Spin

2011-03-21T19:15:00.000-04:00

When I need a break from making baby sweaters and booties I try to do something a little different. I learn a new skill, try to finish a project, use up some of my yarn stash to make something for a neighbour. Really, there isn't much difference between what I do for a living and what I do as a hobby-and that's the way I want it!

I acquired a spinning wheel from a friend, an Ashford Traveller with a single treadle. I didn't know anything about using a spinning wheel, but I new I wanted to find out! I did some drop spindle work, but I wanted my spinning to go faster and more sophisticated.

My very first hand spun on a drop spindle.

My second hand spun, I liked a little better. Plus this wool I dyed myself-that was fun!

The wheel needed some cleaning and fixing up-giving me an opportunity to really become acquainted with the parts and functions of the wheel. I've seen wheels in action before, watched videos on YouTube and seen spinners in real life, so I kinda got the gist of it. Also understanding the concept of spinning with a drop spindle and plying made a good foundation for understanding how to use the wheel.

I've been practicing on my wheel and decided it was time to put some handspun up for sale in my Etsy shop, LadeeBee Supplies. One of these was the first skein of yarn to find a new home:

Recently I decided to try dying some wool with Kool Aid to see how that went. Here are the results:

Two beautiful skeins. So fun to spin and watch the colours change, especially when I plied them together.
Plying is when you take two or more single spun yarns and spin them together - in the opposite direction.

I used cherry, strawberry, blue raspberry, and lime flavoured Kool Aid to achieve this colourway.

You can see little kinks in the yarn. That's because I didn't set the twist yet. I've gotta do one more step before its ready to knit up...

Another look at the variation in colours.

I have to say spinning is a very enjoyable, satisfying and relaxing activity. I feel really good when I finish up a skein of gorgeous yarn. I play with if for a while and examine every part of it...kinda like examining your newborn baby.

And the Winner Is...

2011-03-19T04:33:00.001-04:00

Here is the breakdown of the eligible entries and their assigned numbers:

Melanie Cronyn 1-5
Shan Ven 6,7
Heatherty 8-12
Natalie Ann 13,14
Dawn 15-18
Gili 19,20
Lioz 21
Kitta May 22
Lioz 23
Eliblu 24
Billi Jo 25-26

The Grand Prize goes to Lioz #21 selected by a random number generator at Random.org. Congrats Lioz you receive a $50 gift certificate to Vintage Baby Revival and a pair of tickets to the One of a Kind Spring Show and Sale.

The Runners Up Are: Melanie Cronyn #2 and Heatherty #11
You each receive a pair of tickets to the One of a Kind Show and Sale!

Thanks to everyone for participating, I appreciate your comments and your entries-sharing about the contest and supporting my work! Hope that I'll have a chance to meet each and every one of you at the show.

One of a Kind Spring Show Discount Code

2011-03-05T17:42:00.000-05:00

Save $$$ Buy your tickets to the show online and get a discount using the code on this flyer.

Discount code: ADczaaj

Spring One of a Kind Tickets and Gift Certificate Giveaway!

2011-03-02T14:08:00.000-05:00

The Goods

Grand Prize: $50 Gift Certificate to Vintage Baby Revival plus one pair of tickets to the Spring One of a Kind Show and Sale

Runner Up: Two pairs of tickets to the Spring One of a Kind Sale

Three prizes to win, good luck!

The Deets

You must post a separate comment below for each of your entries.
Give away will close Friday March 18th at midnight and the winners will be announced Saturday March 19th and tickets will be mailed out the following Monday.
Three pairs of tickets will go to three different winners-you can't win twice.
A random number generator will select the winners.

Ways to Enter-Up to Six Entries!

Visit Vintage Baby Revival and tell me what your favorite product is in the comment section below
Follow VBR on Twitter or if you already follow (comment below)
Become a fan of VBR on Facebook (click "like" on Facebook and comment below)
Retweet the contest details on Twitter and share your Twitter handle below
Add my Etsy shop to your "favorites"
Blog about VBR and share your link below

Please make sure I have a way to contact you or remember to check back on Saturday March 18th to see if you are a winner!

Lita's Story

2011-02-25T22:23:00.001-05:00

This is Lita!

My name is Lita, and I am a craft whore. I am at my happiest when I’m making something with my hands. That is what defines me, first and firstmost. But, whether I like it or not, lurking close by in the background is the disease I have lived with, for around half of my life, another big definer of me. I am a sufferer of severe depression and anxiety.

For years I refused to admit it. To me depression was something that happened to other people. This opinion was reinforced by those closest to me, when I asked for advice, when I asked for help. I was told it was nothing, to just think happy thoughts, it was all just in my head. So I believed it, and kept my feelings to myself, for many years. I struggled to move past some hard times in life, without saying a word to anyone around me. It was always just shrugged off, kind of like the moodiness and difficulty coping was just a part of me, a part of my personality. To this day, those closest to me still don’t know how dark it got. Because I believed them all when they said I was fine. I found ways to cope, or so I thought, and I just kept pushing through, making it through the days.

Banner made by Lita

It wasn’t until after the birth of my first daughter that the cracks really started showing. I couldn’t keep the mask up anymore and I finally asked a professional for help. I was given a prescription and sent to a counsellor. The sessions made me feel worse, and so did the meds. So we changed the meds, I stopped seeing the counsellor, and things just kept getting worse. This went on for a couple of years before I called it quits with the whole thing and stopped my meds. I now know what a stupid thing that was to do, but at the time it seemed my only solution. Life continued, with me plodding along, coping with depression while trying to raise a child. I know I only made it through because of the support of my partner, and I thank the stars for him every single day.

I gave birth to my second child in 2007, and while life wasn’t perfect, I seemed to be doing better. Then in 2008 I had a major setback after a particularly difficult private situation. I went downhill rapidly. Blocking people out, withdrawing into my shell, pushing everyone away and letting the depression tighten it’s grip yet again, tighter than ever before. And still, I refused to admit just how dire the situation was. It wasn’t until late last year(2010) that I finally went for help again.

I’m still now juggling meds to find the right combo (on doctors orders of course) and struggling through it all. I know more about the disease now, and understanding that it is a real physical problem has helped me cope with it, helped ease the stigma in my mind at least. I am a long way from being ok, and I am terrified of every med change, knowing that the following weeks will be so difficult whilst I adjust. But I’m hanging in there, trying to find a way through. And while, yes, I can admit that I do need the medication, I have found help and comfort from another unexpected source. Craft.

Lita's Craft Desk

As I said, I am at my happiest when I am creating. For years I let that side of me slide, let depression tale over my life. But I am realising that even 10, 20, 30 minutes a day at my craft desk can lighten the load. I don’t have to create some epic masterpiece, I don’t even have to finish a piece, just being there, creating something, makes my heart heal just a bit. It’s my time, my little world where I please no-one but me. I can create with butterflies and flowers, or dark slashes of paint and ink. I’m not fitting to someone else’s mould, following any rules, I am simply being.

If I could give any advice to those suffering through depression, I simply want to say hang in there. Find that one thing that brings you even the tiniest bit of joy and cling to it. Craft, read a book, grow vegetables. Bake a cake, keep a journal, knit a sweater. I’m not telling you it will solve all your problems, that craft will heal all. But it may just help you get through, even if just for a while.

I know I’m in for a long battle, but craft, and the crafting community, along with my partner and my gorgeous girls, are what gets me through the day. It may not be a perfect life, but it’s mine, and I’m living it the best way I know how.

Favourite Things Journal by Lita

Thanks to Lita for submitting her story. If you'd like to leave comments please do so below-she'll be checking back and in case she misses them, I'll let her know. You can take a look at more of Lita's work at her Etsy shop, Artful Fancies, check out her blog and follow her on Twitter!

Spring One of a Kind Workshop

2011-02-23T13:02:00.001-05:00

I'll be teaching participants at the Spring One of a Kind Show in Toronto how to embroider using a vintage iron-on transfer. Sublime Stitching has generously given me permission to use their hand drawn illustrations on how to work the various stitches-and instructions for lefties too!

Here is the sample that we will be making during the workshop:

You can check it out online at the One of a Kind website

Workshop includes materials, instruction, admission, and light breakfast. Tickets are $50

LadeeBee Supplies Vintage Buttons Mega Sale

2011-02-12T17:28:00.001-05:00

Here's your chance to buy all the vintage buttons you want at 50% OFF. All vintage buttons at LadeeBee Supplies will be half price on Valentine's Day, Feb 14th, 2011. Just use coupon code BUTTONLOVE at checkout. Also, you always pay one low shipping price no matter how many buttons you buy!!!

For the Love of Folk

2011-02-09T11:17:00.000-05:00

Finally sitting down to tell you about my visit to the American Folk Art Museum in New York City! I adore American Folk art and couldn't believe it when I glimpsed the museums banner just down street from the Hilton where Vogue Knitting Live was being held. It was a perfect stop for me as I needed something to do while I waited for my class with Debbie Bliss. So I'll share the photos with you now!

As a fibre artist I really appreciated that the museum was holding a special exhibit on quilts. I adore quilts and have been aching to be a fine quilt maker myself. I previously lived in Tennessee and was influenced by southern American women's quilt making. I loved that folksy, country feel that so many homes were styled in at that time. Quilts were definitely a necessary component of achieving that style.

I really dig the style of this illustration. I regret that I didn't jot down
the artist's info!

These dolls are carved wood and dressed with fabric clothing. It is a representation
of an actual family.

I thought this was really cool and the fact that the artist
basically lived on the streets was intriguing. You can
read the info on this piece in the photo below.

Click on the image to enlarge.

Click to enlarge. This description accompanies the photo below.

This description accompanied the quilt above.

This quilt is insane! I can't imagine how to even approach something
like this from a creation standpoint.

Debbie is to Me as Beiber is to Tweens

2011-01-25T08:47:00.000-05:00

The first ever Vogue Knitting Live took place this past weekend in New York City. It was a mecca for yarnies near and far. It seemed as though all of the industries top knitters/designers were on hand to impart their knowledge through a huge selection of classes. Classes took place over three days and morning and afternoon sessions were offered. Also, there was a Marketplace packed with amazing vendors for our shopping pleasure.

Friday January 21st will be a day I will always remember! I traveled to NYC by myself (I realize its nice to spend time with oneself but I missed having company) on Thursday, checked into my hotel and got an early night. Bright and early I set off for the Hilton Hotel to register for VKLive. After a leisurely coffee and banana bread breakkie at Starbucks I decided to head to Central Park. What a beautiful winter day!

After I visited the American Folk Art Museum which happens to be right down the street from the Hilton. I will post my pics of the tour another time (here's a hint "quilts").

Class included instruction, yarn for the project, and copy of Debbie's
Design It, Knit It: Babies

Me and Debbie Bliss!
I think I was crying.

Yeah I know, I'm adorable right? Debbie stopped by all the students individually to give us an opportunity to ask questions and get help. I basically took the class so I could stalk D.B. ( I don't think she was offended). My questions were "can you sign my book?" and "can I take my picture with you". I also told her I was designing and creating baby knits myself and selling at the One of a Kind. I found out that Debbie used to do some machine knitting herself. She was so nice! I wish I could've had her all to myself...I think we'd have a lot to talk about. I hope I can be half as cool as her when I grow up.

...stay tuned for more on Vogue Knitting Live

You Know You are a Hoarder When...

2011-01-18T01:09:00.000-05:00

What happened to my room after I remade the living room. I had to get those
two big bookcases out of my room and carry books, pile by pile and reorganize them.
Not everything that was once in the bookcase is going back...what to do? what to do?
I've certainly got my work cut out for me tomorrow.

Heya folks! All of my life I have been a "slob" and lived in a "pig sty". Words in quotes because they are my mother's. She pleaded, yelled, and threatened in order to get me to clean my room when I was growing up. Let's just say I responded to all of this with steadfast defiance and the more she threatened, the more I refused to clean up my room.

Truth is I am really good at cleaning up. I helped my mum out with housework and once I cleaned the bathroom so well she decided it would be my chore for life. So I learned how to do a half-ass job of household chores so as not to be pinned with those tasks again!

I have been totally overwhelmed lately with the amount of articles I have accumulated over the past couple of years. When we watch "Hoarders" together as a family my partner and son look over at me with raised eyebrows as images of chaos and disaster sweep the television screen. I'd protest their stares with "I'm not that bad!" After all their were no decomposing cats, or shit stained washrooms, and I certainly wasn't crapping in diapers. But, I do have several sewing machines (only one works), knitting machines, fabric, yarn stashed in every negative space, projects on knitting needles in bags hanging from anything that looks like a hook, odds and ends from thrift stores that I still have no idea what I'll do with it. Yep, its a-gettin' pretty bad.

I decided to give the living room a makeover so that we can actually live in the room. No more yarn all over the place, unreachable dust bunnies, spinning wheel in the middle of the room, ball winders and swift. I need to give back space to my family. I wish I had taken "before" pics, but here is the "after".

Our fave hang out spot!

I like to sit in this chair to do my hand knitting and crochet.

The bird cage on the left needs a little work. That ficus is barely fitting
in the room, but I haven't got the heart to get rid of it. In the summer it goes
out on our porch.

A place for all of my vintage and new craft magazines
and books. I just love my collection!

So if your place looks anything like this:

Oh lawd, this is embarrassing! I essentially dump and reorganize
perhaps not the most sophisticated way to approach the task.

...It may be time for some help. I'll keep you posted on the fate of this room!
Any tips for me on organizing? Any horror stories of your own? Let me know.

You're Sad Today Because...

2011-01-17T12:51:00.000-05:00

One British professor theorizes that this third Monday of January is the saddest day of the year. Why? Because of holiday debt, broken New Years resolutions and dreary weather.

Well, today I am in luck because I paid cash for my holiday spending, I didn't make New Years Resolutions and as it happens it is a bright, bright sunshiny winter day!

So is this theory a bunch of bullsh!t? What do you think? Are you having a sad day?

Resolve to Buy Handmade-Happy New Year Round Up

2010-12-28T14:29:00.001-05:00

A new year is approaching, 2010 is winding down and many of us are reflecting on the past and looking forward to new beginnings. I hope that Close Knit readers have had a good holiday season! As a tribute to 2011 I have rounded up some goodies from Etsy for you to enjoy. Happy New Year!

Letterpress Coaster Set by Lucky Bee Press

Year of the Rabbit 2011 Happy New Year Cards-Set of 8 by Eden Creative Studio

2011 Freshwater Pearl and Sterling Silver 2011 Necklace
by Sweet Bird Designs

Fortune Wine Tote Bag in White by Xenotees'

Destination Unknown Mini Notebook in Wood Grain by Campfire Chic

Fest Stay On Coasters in Moss by Dimmalimm Home

2011 Calendar Download-Birds and Prisms by Mai Autumn

This is my Year 8x8 Art Print by MursBlank

Turn Over a New Leaf Tiny Bowl with Leaf Tokens by Paloma's Nest

2011 Weekly Planner by Nico Papergoods

Montreal This Weekend

2010-12-14T16:54:00.000-05:00

Stop by and say "hi". My son and I will be testing out the water with our new 100% washable merino wool slouchy hats. He co designed them and I knit them. They'll be the best hats in town!

The Great Katazome Giveaway

2010-12-02T06:03:00.000-05:00

This giveaway is being held by the best source for high quality paper, The Paper Place in downtown Toronto. Katazome is absolutely my favorite style of Japanese paper and it happens to be the most expensive, so winning a huge stash is just what the doctor ordered.

Once in a while the Paper Place holds a "fill a bag sale" in which we can fill up a choice of two sizes of bags with Paper Place off cuts. The first time I went to the sale I must've spent two hours carefully filling my bag by aligning all the narrow off cuts into my bag to maximize the amount I could stuff into that clear envelope! The only rules were the bag had to close and the bag couldn't break. When they saw my bag stuffed with Katazome, a staff person lovingly told me I was a Katazome whore. I gladly admit, I AM A KATAZOME WHORE!

You can enter this giveaway too just click here

Where to Get Your Yarn Fix-My Top Six

2010-11-15T00:43:00.000-05:00

What is your porn? For some people porn is their porn, but for me yarn is porn. I am sure if scientists hooked me up to heart rate, and brain wave activity monitors they'd see just how stimulated I get from looking at photos of yarn. While it may not be sexual stimulation I am talking about I spend a lot of time shopping for yarn online and in real life at my Local Yarn Shops (LYS). Sometimes I "have to look" because it is my job. I've gotta know who has the best deals on yarn and it has to be top quality too-I've gotta business to run ya know. I have tried all sorts of avenues to get my yarn fix and today is your lucky day 'cause I am here to share them with you!

photo from Elann.com website
"sample skeins subscription"

Elann.com

Elann is a Canadian-based company, yet I am sure that they ship worldwide-but as usual rates are probably better if you live in North America (if someone has purchased from them from outside N.A. please share your experience in the comments section)
I have been buying yarn from these guys for a long time and you don't get much better than this in terms of quality and price. Shipping is super quick, packed nicely and includes their latest brochure on newly released or upcoming yarn releases.
Elann has their own brand and carries some famous brands too like Noro, Debbie Bliss, Ella Rae, Araucania, Berocco and more! They've also got books, but you'll get better deals on those on Amazon or Knit Picks (when they have their sale). However, they do have a customer loyalty program. Once you spend $500 you get $50 to spend on more yarn and if you purchase books you get a certain number of vouchers per book that earn you $2.50 off every yarn order over $25.
Honestly, Elann's prices are like getting good yarn at wholesale price and that makes me very, very happy.

Image from the Knit Picks website.
This sock kit is currently on sale here

Knit Picks

I purchased my yarn swift for $50 (they have a swift sale from time to time-so always wait until it goes on sale). It was the best price I could find for the quality. I realize I am not talking about yarn here, but an indispensable tool for any yarn hoarder, so you can appreciate! The swift is all wood, is packaged well and ships quickly. It gets the job done and I have no complaints. I am sometimes not a careful person, but I take care of my swift because the parts that make up the umbrella seem fragile so I'd say be nice to your swift if you get one, and you and your swift should have many happy years together.
My plan is to start purchasing yarn from Knit Picks. They seem to have a very nice selection, prices are great too. They have a really pretty website and it is full of inspiration. I urge you to check it out! I adore the kits they put together and if you like knitting socks you can buy a kit to make five pairs for as little as $26!

Oregon Trail Yarn

This Ebay shop is one of my faves because I can save money on Brown Sheep Company's Lamb's Pride. This shop sells "mill ends" and the good stuff on cones and saves you a bundle! Mill ends in my experience just means there are a couple of knots in the skein of yarn, which for me is no big deal. I found Oregon Trail to have great customer service, quick shipping and fantastic product and prices. You really can't go wrong.

Craigslist

You probably know this already, but Craig's may have a site for your community where people buy and sell and post announcements. When I was first building up my yarn stash, I trolled Craigslist religiously. You gotta be quick and you gotta be willing to travel across town for a potential good deal. I have NEVER had a bad experience shopping here, but please use your common sense when meeting sellers. Go with a friend, don't go in their house, do what you are comfortable doing and what seems reasonable. In addition to individual sellers, many shop owners post announcements on Craigslist to remind customers about store sales...so keep checking!

Image from the Ravelry home page.

Ravelry

Ravelry is an online community of knitters and crocheters and spinners. If you aren't one of the one million members, NOW is your time to get your free membership. There are more benefits to Ravelry than just shopping for yarn. You can make friends, learn about local Stitch N Bitch groups, get support, find patterns, share patterns, catalogue your stash and tools. Individuals will post yarn for sale or trade from their stash and often if you join the right group you'll learn about "secret" sales. Ravelry is a necessary resource.

Etsy

Seek and you will find on Etsy. Go to the search bar and type in what you're looking for. I like to search "handspun yarn" or "hand painted yarn" choose "supplies" from the drop-down menu on the left and away you go. Pages and pages and pages of yarny goodness. Go to Etsy when you need to splurge and when you are in the mood for something special. Delayed gratification is okay, trust me, your yarn will arrive in the mailbox and suddenly you'll say "today is a good day".

Tell me about your favorite yarn sellers...How do you get your yarn fix?

Fog

2010-11-13T01:46:00.000-05:00

There's only a couple more weeks to go until the One of a Kind Show and Sale in Toronto. I've built my display and it's ready for the final touches, I am in the process of tagging all of my items, packing things into boxes, and checking my lists.

I've been so busy helping my son with homework, crocheting, knitting, running around town doing errands, teaching and trying desperately to keep on top of housework that I have barely any time to do a blog post. But, tonight I am inspired.

Had a fantastic date tonight with friends. A delicious filet mignon, red wine, a velvety rich chocolate cake for dessert and coffee...all the while a thick blanket of fog covered the city. I couldn't resist going inside for my camera and getting back out into the early morning air to shoot some pics at my intersection.

In front of my fave
coffee shop, which happens
to be across the street from
my home.

A cyclist speeds by as I shoot this pic.

Clinical Depression: A Biologically Based Disease

2010-10-19T14:31:00.000-04:00

If you think you have depression, or have been diagnosed with depression it is important to understand this disease. Depression is a physical illness that expresses itself in psychological ways. The longer depression goes untreated the greater toll the disease takes on the brain. Studies show that the hippocampus, an area of the brain that plays a role in memory, is smaller in patients with depression than in non-depressed patients. Also, not treating depression right away can have a major impact on the lives of those that it affects. It interferes with an individuals ability to develop meaningful social relationships, to enjoy life and to attain goals in education and career.

See this video for the evidence in research:

I believe that one of the biggest barriers to receiving treatment or being diagnosed in the first place is the stigma that depression carries with it in society. If a person had diabetes they would take insulin, wouldn't they? If an individual had any other physical condition that had a medication that would treat it and make the patient feel better and function normally, would they not do what they could to receive the proper treatment and follow through with it? No one would think to question the need to take medication to treat many physical illnesses, but there is still a question regarding the treatment of depression.

Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT) as a treatment for Depression

The above clips were from a PBS documentary called "This Emotional Life" and this, I believe, was episode 2. I watched this episode today and I highly recommend not only watching this episode but the entire series to deepen your understanding of depression and a whole range of human emotions. The goal is to enlighten ourselves so that we can better understand the struggles of those around us and even our own struggles as we live our lives as human beings. We all want to be happy, but sometimes it just takes a little work. Okay I'll rephrase that, often it takes a lot of work!

Laura's Story: Discovering and Coping with Depression

2010-10-18T09:13:00.002-04:00

Laura Comito is an American artist who I ment on the world wide web. She has openly shared about her struggles with depression in a book entitled "Outside the Lines" by Laura L. Comito. Here is a little bit about her story:

Glass tile mosaic of Laura's hand print.
"The spiral on the palm is my life path and the hand symbolizes my need to work with my hands."

I am an artist. I collect stuff- a lot of stuff. I am a mixed media collage artist which is a fancy way of saying packrat.

Mental illness runs in my family. Just part of what makes me who I am. My parents were undiagnosed but looking back I am pretty sure my father was bipolar and my mother was depressed. My older brother was severely autistic – at least that is the diagnosis we got- it was the late 50’s and to be honest the Doctors were never really sure. In my early 20’s I started having trouble concentrating, couldn’t sleep and then when I did sleep wanted to sleep all day. I lost interest in pretty much everything that I enjoyed and isolated myself from family and friends. The worst was when I stopped collecting and creating. Then I knew something was wrong. That was the first time I heard about chemical depression. It was the early 80’s and the meds for depression were awful. As soon as I started taking them I wanted to stop and I did as soon as possible. I was able to coast for about 15 years with out medication but I was not a fun person to live with and I pretty much operated at bare minimum which was not fair to my family.

"Dance We Must"-acrylic painting

After the birth of my 4^th child I knew something had to change. I went back to my Doctor and he told me I was depressed. Surprise huh? Then he looked me right in the eye and said you will need medication for the rest of your life. I got a little hostile with him but then he said if you were diabetic you would take insulin everyday wouldn’t you? This is no different. (Today’s antidepressants are much better than the old school meds.)

That was the turning point for me. That was when I realized the only way to live with depression was to take ownership of it. I AM DEPRESSED and I am not afraid to talk about it. I published a book about my depression because I wanted to let people know they are not alone. One of the ways I cope with depression is to do something creative everyday. Collage, sew, knit, or write...whatever I am in the mood to do. Art keeps me grounded. Art keeps that pit far away from me.

Laura and her self portrait. Charcoal on canvass.
completed "a few weeks before I was diagnosed with depression"

ARTWORKS STUDIO

...where coloring outside the lines is encouraged!

Laura L Comito

507 N Main Street

Carroll, IA 51401

(712)775-2035

www.artworksandbeads.com

http://laura-comito.blogspot.com/

Too Poor to Get in the Door

2010-10-16T19:40:00.000-04:00

When I was 19, my son was born. Having a baby at a young age has many benefits but it also had many challenges. The most prominent challenge in my mind was poverty. Once I transitioned out of poverty I think I may have been considered a "low income" family. I am in my 30's now, transitioning out of poverty was a long, long process.

December 1998

Through those years, every time the holiday season rolled around the joy I felt as a little kid for Christmas was replaced by anxiety and guilt. My shopping list was short-mainly whatever my son requested and waited all year to receive. I saved up points on my customer loyalty cards for a drugstore and department store and cashed them in to beef up my son's stocking and skipped a bill payment or two in favor of getting him that bicycle or Playstation 2 or that exciting "big ticket" item.

Proud co-creator of gingerbread house!

I put myself through college and university and eventually landed a full-time job at a great non-profit agency with nice benefits and a salary that was reasonably competitive. Finally, I could afford "luxuries". Luxuries like knitting.

My love for knitting and yarn craft led me to knitting for profit and knitting for profit led me into this new world of artsy craftsy types-those who make and buy and appreciate the handmade. Many times I had been asked if I have been to the One of a Kind Show and Sale at Christmas and I always replied with a reluctant "no". I understood that this was something I had to do. The reputation of this show is so huge and a big favorite of those that patronize the handmade. After some time I started to feel guilty that I had never been to the OOAK Show and Sale. I always heard "it's soooo expensive" and there is a cost just to get in the door.

So fast forward to today. I am going to my FIRST SHOW this year. 2010. I think I have paid the most I have ever paid to get into any show, because I am participating as a vendor. I wish I had been able to go to the OOAK Show at least once over the years. I see it advertised every time and it always piqued my curiosity, but with the holidays not much has changed for me. It is just about making my son happy. This year I still won't be able to afford to shop there, but at least I am in the door!

Decorating dollar store frames and adding
pics of us-a nice hand made gift for every
member of the family!

How accessible is art for you? Has it been accessible to you over the years? Do you see it as a necessity or a luxury? Should art be a necessity?

The Little Tagline That Could

2010-10-15T03:10:00.001-04:00

These past few days I haven't had much energy and the symptoms of depression seem to be ever creeping up on me as the days grow shorter. Not sure if these feelings are situational or chemical, but the blahs are definitely with me. I feel so uninspired and when I feel uninspired it makes me sad. I have had to fight through it though because I am debuting my line of goodies for knitters and crocheters this Saturday at Wise Daughters and there is still much work to do.

I can see how before I had treatment for my depression that these feelings would've spiraled further down and it would be difficult for me to recognize what was going on with my mood. I have to tell myself that this will pass, that I'll feel better and that the negative thoughts in my head is the depression talking. I'd tell you my thoughts, but there are so many swimming around in there it is a little overwhelming and difficult to write one without the urge to write them all and thus forgetting the point of this post.

So the point is, I am feeling inspired enough to write a post! I made up a little flyer to have on my table at Wise Daughters this weekend because I know I'll be meeting other knitters, crocheters, spinners and crafters and I want to tell them about my desire for guest bloggers on Close Knit! The little flyer got me thinking about a tagline and I did a little brainstorming and came up with

"reaching out and inspiring others to enrich their lives through art and craft"

This little tagline got me excited. I needed to put what I want to do in words that made sense to me. I found a way through depression with the help of activities I enjoy when enjoyment was rarely found. Something about the act of knitting gave me the drive to keep on, even if it was to just knit another row. I want to help others in similar circumstances to find what will enrich their lives-perhaps through craft or art. This little tagline gives me a greater focus for the purpose of this blog and that gets me excited. I feel better already.

Lisa's Story

2010-10-12T14:05:00.003-04:00

My next guest blogger is a neighbour of mine! I met Lisa when I was knitting in a new cafe that opened up across the street from my house. She walked up and commented on my knitting and explained that she was a knitter too-and we've been connected ever since! I have seen her wonderful knits on her beautiful baby granddaughter and always admired her work. Lisa responded to my call for guest bloggers as a friend on Facebook and so she graciously shares her story below:

My dad in the 1920s
in knitwear head to toe

I know a bit about craft and mental illness. Those who know me best are laughing out loud at that statement ;-) I sew, quilt and knit. Crafting is laden with family memories – all the women in family were/are knitters, from grandmas , mom, sister, to the next generation of daughter and nieces. So that makes me happy and reminds me of those loving ties as I knit.

My Mom, who passed away a year ago.
I was thrilled when I found this photo.

As for the mental illness, I have bipolar disorder, also known as manic depression. Which means lots of time under the black cloud, unable to do much; and briefer periods of increased energy and joy…till it gets crazy and I crash again. One big, scary rollercoaster. So how do the mental illness and craft interact? When I’m low, knitting is usually the first activity I can pick up again, and I’m convinced it helps soothe and cheer me. When I’m high and agitated, knitting acts like meditation – slows me down and grounds me.


My sister (aged 11) designed and knit this intarsia animal baby blanket for me. She is still the most magnificent, fearless knitter I know.

I’ve seen knitting help others, as well. I’ve been in and out of hospital many times, and a bag of knitting supplies is always the first thing my husband brings to me. And once I’m out in the ward knitting (after the staff have confiscated all sharps like scissors and cable needles!), it doesn’t take long for people to approach, fascinated, asking to learn how to knit, or for some spare needles and yarn to cast on. And what do my fellow patients tell me? “My mother used to knit for me”; or, “my grandmother taught me to knit.” During my last hospital stay I knit three sweet dresses for my baby granddaughter. And I know she will be a knitter.

Lisa and granddaughter, safe and warm in a whole lot of knitwear

Jennifer's Story

2010-10-08T02:16:00.000-04:00

This post is written by guest blogger, Jennifer Hicks. I met Jennifer online, she lives in my great city of Toronto and through our emails we realized we are connected through mutual friends. Really, we are all connected in some way or another. I am sure you will feel connected with Jennifer too when you read about her struggle with a mental illness and how she used her creative pursuits to overcome it.

I have a secret. I have Bipolar Disorder. Actually, that’s no secret. If you were to read anything I’ve posted on my blog over the past several years, you’d already know that. And you’d know that I feel there’s no reason for me to hide it from anyone.

Actually the real secret is that although I have Bipolar Disorder, I have learned how to live a relatively normal life. Well, as normal as normal is these days…

Crazy. That’s what I would have called someone with anorexia, an exercise obsession and Bipolar Disorder. That is, before I turned 30 and suddenly was the one living with all those things.

But now, 7 years later, I see my experiences with mental illness as something crazy with a big dose of awesomeness. Because I have control (at least, to some extent). Like a scientist, I’ve spent many hours in the lab experimenting to find out what is the most suitable remedy for me. I became my own Christopher Colombus and explored every inch of my being.

Sure, I support the pharmaceutical companies, doing my best to take my little white pills and capsules daily, but that’s not quite enough for me. And you wanna know how I discovered that?

This is the secret part. Ready for it?

The truth is, I listened to my soul. Yep, there’s this quote by Dorothy Allison that is kind of like my wellness anthem: “I would rather go naked than wear the coat the world has made for me". In other words, wellness came to be because I made choices that my gut told me were right for me. Instead of letting others tell me what was best for me, my will, my spirit, (or whatever you care to call it) called the shots and guided me to the right places.

So what exactly did my soul whisper to me? Among other things, it pushed me in the direction of dance. When I didn’t have the words to sort out my emotions, dance took me there. When I had too much energy or not enough, dance helped stabilize me by burning out the highs and boosting me up from the lows. Yup, dance helped feed a creative desire and allowed me to trade self-destruction for self-expression and self-care.

Now? Now I teach expressive movement. Specifically, I teach Nia, which combines elements of dance arts, martial arts and healing arts. Nia encourages participants to find joy in movement, moving according to the way our bodies are designed to move. Over time, Nia taught me that I could exchange the pain I’d experienced in my previous workouts for smiles, pleasure and laughter. For me, Nia is joyful, energizing & empowering fitness practice that allowed me to burst into my creative self which has given me a business to nurture and grow. Because of it, I have watched my self-confidence swell and can better cope with inevitable mood fluctuations.

And so I believe wellness is with me now because I paid attention to myself and my need to create and express. I acknowledged my desire to move; moving not only my body, but also my mind, spirit and emotions.

Jennifer Hicks is a Brown Belt Nia Instructor in Toronto, Canada. Teaching high energy, dynamic and free-spirited Nia classes is her passion. Leading by example, Jennifer inspires her students to jump right in and make the most of themselves. Jennifer also maintains a private Speech-Language Pathology practice working with adults recovering from brain injury, stroke and other neurological issues.

Jennifer Hicks

jenniferhicks@rogers.com

www.jennhicks.ca

Twitter: @jennelizhicks

Nia

www.nianow.com

www.niac.ca

New 'Zine About to Bust out on the Scene!

2010-10-08T01:48:00.000-04:00

I just love how the world of handmade encompasses the globe and makes me feel instantly connected to individuals as far away as Australia. I have been drawn to Australian designers for a while via Etsy. I don't know what it is, but when I like something lots the artist happens to live in Australia. I am finding reasons to visit down under more and more. Thankfully if your budget is as limited as mine and travelling to the other side of the globe isn't an option at least you can sample a little of this and a little of that by shopping online and connecting with artists through the various outlets on the webisphere. During my daily internet travels I came across an exciting 'zine that is about to make its debut on the handmade world. Allow me to introduce you to:

*bespoke*

*bespoke* is an Australian Zine by the handmade community : for the handmade community.

I find it so exciting to get in on something right from its birth so I didn't hesitate to show my support by preording my first issue. The first issue is due out October 18th and you too can order your copy by clicking here! I just love the cover art on the first issue.

Jessica Van Den, the woman behind *bespoke* is also seeking submissions and ideas for content for upcoming issues. As the tagline says "by the handmade community, for the handmade community".

You can also find *bespoke* on Facebook and you can follow the creator Jessica Van Den on Twitter.

Getting Ready for OOAK

2010-10-07T15:59:00.001-04:00

The One of a Kind Show and Sale in Toronto seems like it is just around the corner. I am definitely excited but I feel so fearful that I just won't be able to make as many things as I hoped! I am being very optimistic, of course, that I'll have lots and lots of sales. I thought I'd give you a taste of what I have been working on. I am bringing my Vintage Baby Revival line with me to the show so its all about knits for babe!

Washable merino wool poncho with matching
booties and mitts on a string

Washable merino wool poncho with matching mitts
in a nice colour combo for boys!

Merino wool poncho with matching booties.
I think this is my fave colour combo!

Lots of thumbless mitts on a string!

Marked! New Stitch Markers by LadeeBee Supplies

2010-10-06T15:31:00.000-04:00

Listed in my Etsy shop, LadeeBee Supplies are the first editions of my new line of stitch markers for knitters and crocheters. I will be debuting them in person at Wise Daughters Craft Market in Toronto on Saturday October 15th. Come and check out this wonderful event especially for fibre artists!

Here is a peek at what I have completed:

Adorable yarn charm compliments these malachite bead stitch markers.

Stitch markers for knitters

Stitch markers for crocheters

Markers are beautiful enough to wear as a pendant on your favorite chain!

All stitch markers come gift wrapped, ready to give or to keep for yourself!

One of a Kind Coming Soon to Toronto-Get Your Discount!

2010-10-06T12:57:00.000-04:00

Hello internet friends. Just wanted to let y'all know I will be participating in the Toronto One of a Kind Show and Sale this coming November 25-December 5th, 2010 with Vintage Baby Revival. I'll be in the Rising Stars section as this is my first year participating in the show-so I thought this would be the best place to start! I hope that some of you will be able to visit me. Please take advantage of this discount offer good on the price of admission to the show.

Something New

2010-10-01T20:07:00.000-04:00

Now that I have a fabric stash to speak of I figured it was time to stop hoarding it and put it to good use. It is so difficult to cut into that stuff, particularly the nice little folded fat quarters, so pretty and neat. But I tore into my stash the other day and got down to designing a crochet hook keeper. I wanted something that would make me happy (ie hooks don't fall out and onto the floor) and pretty. Here are some photos of the results of an afternoon of work.

Earlier in this blog I talked about buying some fabric at a quilt shop in Ft McMurray, Alberta and I gave you a tour of that shop. Well, I opened up those FQs and put them to work!

needles stay put in this case!

The green version.

I am very happy with the results and I have offered them up for sale in my shop at LadeeBee Supplies. I'll be making more, so stay tuned. This month I'll be debuting these needle keepers at Wise Daughters Craft Market Yarn Party and you are invited!

The Street Knit Project

2010-09-30T09:10:00.000-04:00

If it is one thing I know about knitters, it is that they love to knit. Same thing goes for the crochet crowd. Also, people like to give. So here is a project that puts those two ideas together. Of course knitters have been doing this very thing for generations and generations: knitting to provide woolens for those in need. Street Knit calls knitters to knit for those in Toronto shelters. Blankets, hats, mittens, scarves are all fair game. All we have to do as knitters and crocheters is do what we love and Street Knit takes care of the coordination.

Fortunately for me Street Knit meets once per month at Wise Daughters Craft Market, which is just up the street from my home. Stitchers gather on the last Tuesday of every month to work together on their individual Street Knit project. It is a time to socialize and be together, doing what we love and to spread some warmth over Toronto.

If you don't live in Toronto I urge you to find out what is happening in your city. If you find an initiative please share it below in the comments section.

Click on the Street Knit flyer to see it up close!

Mary's Story

2010-09-29T21:36:00.000-04:00

Allow me to introduce Mary Breen! Mary operates a beautiful shop in our neighbourhood filled with one of a kind hand made gifts. She is constantly finding ways to get involved, to give to people in need and to support the arts. She is one of my personal heroes. Here is her story:

I’ve had depression for 31 one years. At least that’s how long I’ve been receiving treatment; it might have started earlier. No surprise there. A great many of my family members have depression or other forms of mental illness. So I know I could have it a lot worse, say if my DNA code had called for schizophrenia or bi-polar disorder. Mental illness just runs in my family. I have long since come to terms with it. In fact the only time I remember being aware of the “stigma” was when my father was in and out of hospital, and everyone around me was weird about it. As far as I’m concerned, this treatable disease is no different, and in a lot of ways preferable, to any number of physical ailments that might negatively impact my quality of life. And, as an aside, you wouldn’t balk at insulin for diabetes, so why say no to drugs for this disease?

My life is definitely one of quality, and a big part of the reason is craft (also art, dance, theatre, literature...). It’s imperative that I have a creative outlet, and it’s always been that way. Along with the depression, I inherited a very dominant crafty gene! My mother and all my foremothers, especially the spinster aunts, always had projects on the go. No woman in my family ever sat down without something in her lap to work on (that’s the hereditary work ethic poking its nose in where it doesn’t necessarily belong). The talent of these women inspires me everyday. I use their embroidered linens and meticulously hand-painted china, and enjoy the memory of all the crazy stuff my mum and I made when I was young.

They say knitting lowers your blood pressure. I’m sure that’s true for me (until I drop a stitch), and the same applies to painting, drawing, needlepointing, felting, soap-making and most any other artistic activity I pursue. Though making can be exhilarating too. And best of all, it gets you out of your head. The chatter stops, the self-censoring stops, and the joy flows. It does a body – and mind – good. Between the drugs, the crafts, a loving partner and amazing (also crafty) daughters, I’ve got everything I need for good health.

Mary Breen

Owner, Wise Daughters Craft Market

www.wisedaughters.com

P.S. Here’s a photo of the smocked dress one of my relatives made for my mother, who was born in 1925. It hangs in the shop.

Guest Bloggers Wanted!

2010-09-22T02:14:00.001-04:00

Hi All,
I am looking for ladies and gentlemen that are interested in guest blogging a piece on your personal experience with depression and how craft has helped "treat" your depression. If you think that this sounds like something you'd be interested in sharing please shoot me an email
junctionknitting (at) yahoo (dot) com

The purpose for sharing your stories is to help give strength and inspiration to those that may be experiencing a similar mental health problem and need to get help, or to those that have gotten help but need a place to see that they are not alone. Depression is an isolating illness and I believe that one way of effectively reaching out is to do it by way of internet-ya know that series of tubes!

Your entry just needs to be a couple of paragraphs, some photos would be appreciated, and you can be anonymous if you want to. If you would like to be identified please let me know how, and if you have a website, blog or shop you'd like me to link back to I can do that for you as well.

All the best in health and craft,
Melissa
a.k.a. LadeeBee

Knit 1 for the Road: A visit with Melissa of Vintage Baby Revival...

2010-09-21T17:16:00.000-04:00

Knit 1 for the Road: A visit with Melissa of Vintage Baby Revival...: " Melissa's profile caught my eye on CreatingTheHive, the exciting new crafting community. Her use of color and texture was so inviting, I ..."

Thanks to Margaret Nock for the interview and giving me a time to shine. Please fly on over to her blog and check it out!

Knitting a Dead Art? Pish Posh, I Say

2010-09-16T15:24:00.000-04:00

OMG this is EXACTLY what I wear when I am knitting.
Thigh high denim boots and my underwear. Sexee!

High fashion. Celeb habits. Knitting is getting around. If I ever hear one more person say to me that knitting is a dying art I am going to point them to this blog posting and then teach them how to knit!

How will she see her stitches
if she holds her needles "down there"

knitting in a veil can be tricky, but still not impossible as this model proves.

Amy Adams knitting.
Somehow I feel way cooler now.

Guess what ladies? He's knitting
his Mom a sweater.

Kristin Davis

SJP

In conclusion, knitting is not dead, knitting will never die. Knitting is forever. Knitting is better when you do it wearing thigh high boots and underwear.

Top Five Reasons to Buy Handmade

2010-09-14T23:31:00.000-04:00

Pin By My Fiber Fun

#1 It Just Feels Good: Supporting your local economy feels right. When you purchase a handmade item from an artisan you are directly contributing to someone's livelihood. That person has the ability to set their own prices and therefore be paid a "fair wage" according to their own standards. It makes others happy when they can make a living doing what they are passionate about.

LadeeBee's Studio

#2 Provide Inspiration: Each and every sale to the hand made artist is a boost to that individual's confidence. They'll be inspired to keep creating because you are showing your appreciation for their talent and skill.

#3 A (Good) Reputation: Express your appreciation to your friends, colleagues, and loved ones by giving unique gifts they have never laid eyes on before! You won't have to worry about someone taking your gift back for an exchange or refund because they've already got "one of those". You'll develop a reputation for giving thoughtful, well-made, one of a kind items.

Bridesmaids Gifts by BujuBaju

Crochet wool knit asymmetrical wrap with pin closure

made to measure

by Sandmaiden

#4 Individuality: Everyone likes to express their individuality with cool gear. Why not demonstrate your personal style by shopping handmade fashions and accessories? You won't need to keep that blouse for weekend use only because so-and-so at the office has the exact same one. Some artists even make clothes custom-made to measure!

#5 Kind to the Environment: Many artists re-purpose older items to make something new, useful and beautiful. Keep encouraging folks to make old into new to keep "stuff" out of landfills. Also, if you shop local your goods are travelling fewer miles to get to you.

Salvaged Key-Shaped Key Rack / Chalkboard

by Half Pint Salvage

What are your reasons for buying hand made?

Hive Creative Challenge DeVine Neck Warmer

2010-09-14T07:43:00.000-04:00

The Hive is having a challenge for all of its members: submit something that you have created that has been inspired by the fall season. The winner takes home the glory and a $50 gift certificate to Amazon.com. If you are wondering what the Hive is then it is time to buzz on over find out! Just click HERE

This is my submission: The DeVine Neck Warmer

This knitted and lined neck warmer was created with a luxurious Diamond Yarn wool and finished with a vintage fabric lining and hand made coconut buttons. I created it about a year ago, but this is a new piece that hasn't been shared with my fellow Hivers. Enjoy! (ps don't forget to click "like" on the Hive)

The Knitters Have Done It!

2010-09-13T12:19:00.000-04:00

The core team Mary, Melissa, Dawn, Diana, and Rosa.

This past weekend was the Junction Arts Festival, in the community of West Toronto Junction. A feast of musical, arts, and creative talent convened on Dundas West to show off their skills.
Wise Daughters Craft Market initiated a weekend long project that involved community, knitting, and helping those that don't have a home. We gathered together on the street to invite people to knit and donate a square so that we could put them together into an enormous car cozy. The loaned car was a Nissan Cube donated by Auto Share. Dozens and dozens of volunteers donated squares ahead of time to assist our project and we had knitters join in all weekend to knit and to learn how to knit so that anyone could contribute.
Many people walking by asked "why?". Why does a car need a cozy? The answer is because! Because its fun!!! An art project just for fun and also for helping those in need. All those squares that we assembled to make the cozy are going to be unassembled and remade into nice blankets to give to Street Knit who will then pass them on to shelters.

a look at the Cube before cozying

The cozied Cube!

Swatch A Day #4

2010-09-06T00:09:00.002-04:00

This is Shell Lace Rib Pattern. Since I neglected to block the poor little swatch I had to tape it to a piece of paper before scanning it!

Here's how it's done:

Multiple of 14+2

Row 1: K2, *k2 tog, k2, yo, k1, yo, k5, sl 1, k1, psso, k2*, rep *to*

Row 2 and all even numbered rows: P

Row 3: K2,*k2 tog, k1, yo, k3, yo, k4, sl 1, k1, psso, k2*, rep *to*

Row 5: K2, *k2 tog, yo, k5, yo, k3, sl 1, k1, psso, k2*, rep *to*

Row 7: K2, *k2 tog, k5, yo, k1, yo, k2, sl 1, k1, psso, k2*, rep *to*

Row 9: K2, *k2 tog, k4, yo, k3, yo,k1, sl 1, k1, psso, k2, rep *to*

Row 11: K2, k2 tog, k3, yo, k5, yo, sl 1, k1, psso, k2*, rep *to*

Repeat these 12 rows for pattern

Swatch A Day #3

2010-09-05T01:55:00.000-04:00

Well, to me it is still Saturday, even though officially it is 1:35 am on Sunday! Here is swatch #3:

Bobble Rib

Multiple of 8+5

Rows 1,3, and 5: P5, *k3, p5* rep *to*

Rows 2 and 4: *K5, p3*, rep *to*, end k5

Row 6: *K2, MB [(yo,k1) 3 times, turn to wrong side, sl 1, p5, turn to right side, sl 1, k5, turn to wrong side, (p2 tog) 3 times, turn to right side, sl 1, k2 tog, psso (bobble complete)], k2, p3* rep *to*, end k2.

This is not a particularly flattering image of my swatch as the bobbles got a little pressed up to the glass when I scanned them. I believe this is my first time making bobbles. I thought it would be hard, but it was actually quite easy. Once I did a couple of bobbles I had the pattern memorized and could accomplish the pattern pretty quickly.

Project Zoo Loves Alpaca

2010-09-04T11:26:00.001-04:00

Hand Spun Alpaca Fibre

This is a really neat fibre-related volunteer project that I coordinate here in Toronto. We asked the zoo keepers to collect the fibre from the alpaca and camels when the animals are groomed so that we can use the fibre to make beautiful one of a kind objects to donate back to the zoo so they can be sold in the gift shop. The money (100%) raised from the sale of these items go to the "Enrichment Fund". The Enrichment Fund provides the animals that live in the zoo with supplies that enhance the animal's experience. I want to share some photos of some of the work that has been done so far on the project. Enjoy!

Needle Felted Alpaca

For more information on the project please visit our website:

www.projectzoo.wordpress.com

Swatch A Day #2

2010-09-03T11:05:00.000-04:00

Okay, day 2! This one is called

Eyelet Trellis Pattern.

A fancy trellis stitch

Multiple of 7

Row 1: *k2, K2 tog, yo, k3*, rep *to*

Row 2: *P1, p2tog tbl, yo, p1,yo, p2tog, p1*, rep *to*

Row 3: *K2 tog, yo, k3, yo, sl 1, k1, psso*, rep *to*

Rows 4 and 8: P.

Row 5: *Yo, sl 1, k1, psso, k5*, rep *to*

Row 6: *Yo, p2 tog, p2, p2 tog tbl, yo, p1*, rep *to*

Row 7 *K2, yo, sl1, k1, psso, k2 tog, yo, k1, rep *to*

Repeat these 8 rows for pattern.

I don't particularly like purling through the back loops when purling two together. It was a bit awkward and annoying. I don't know if I would knit something large based on this stitch because of the "annoyance" factor. But a lovely pattern nonetheless.

Facing Side
I messed up the first repeat slightly, but decided to leave it anyway.

Wrong side

Won Me Some Swag on My B-Day

2010-09-02T21:42:00.000-04:00

Rachael Brooke Art Jewelry

Cranberry Wine Thistle Earrings

Another generous giveaway by an artisan looking to get her name out there! I am so lucky to be the winner because I LOVE the earrings and it was my birthday too. I can't wait to get 'em in the mail. They are made from a vintage canister set and hang on handmade sterling silver ear wires. These retail for $28 USD. Please click on her name to see her Etsy Shop and have a look at all the wonderful designs to see for yourself! Enjoy.

Swatch A Day #1

2010-09-02T20:13:00.000-04:00

Okay, I am going to start making and collecting swatches for myself, so that when I design a new garment I have a physical sample of the stitch on hand. I am going to try and create one swatch per day and share it with you, my readers. We'll see how long this lasts ;)

Here is my first:

"Double Barred Ribbing"

Multiple of 4 + 2

Row 1: P2 *yf, sl 2 pwise, p2*, rep *to*

Row 2: K2, *p2, k2*, rep *to*

Repeat these two rows for pattern

Front

Back

This pattern goes really quickly 'cause you are slipping half the stitches on one of the rows. I like the effect of the bars on the facing side. The wrong side just looks like 2x2 ribbing.

Happiness Is...Hand Printed Fabrics

2010-08-27T11:33:00.000-04:00

When I go shopping on Etsy one of my favorite treasure hunts is to look for hand printed fabrics. Small productions of fabric are so novel - I haven't seen it a million times. I love the big shot fabric designers too, like Amy Butler or Michael Miller, but I feel I have overexposed myself to their designs and need to see something fresh. Come with me and see some of my favorite finds on Etsy.

Green Olive Textiles located in Melbourne, Australia.

"My Bike-Bits and Pieces Pack"

"Tribal-Screenprinted Fabric Bits and Pieces Pack"

Danielle Stewart Screen Printed Textiles located in Western Australia

Little Miss Quarter located in Great Britain

"Sheeps-Hand Printed Skinny Quarter"

"Toadstools V. 2-Hand Screen Printed Skinny Quarter"

Sarah Waterhouse-Hand Printed Textiles

"English Insults Fabric"

"Lime Green Birdcage Fabric"

Melissa Bombardiere located in Australia

"Pollen Design-Hand Screen Printed Fabric"

"Belbird Design-Hand Screen Printed Fabric"

Bookhou at Home located in Toronto, Ontario

"Pussy Willow Fat Quarter"

"Grass Fat Quarter"

Bespoke Uprising located in Ontario

"Blue Jars Fat Quarter"

"Organic Power Lines Fat Quarter"

You too can do your own treasure hunt go to Etsy.com type "screen printed fabric" into search bar, select "supplies" from the drop down menu and Voila! Share with me YOUR favorites!!

Reflections on the Parkdale Bazaar

2010-08-18T02:39:00.002-04:00

Parkdale is a neighbourhood in Toronto that may be considered by many to be scary. But like many old 'hoods in the T-Dot, things are a-changin'. The Parkdale Liberty Economic Development Corporation just may have something to do with the changes that are happening in the area.

The Parkdale Bazaar is just one of the projects initiated by this group. This outdoor, free admission Bazaar features work from 40-60 local area craft vendors. Offering tables at just $10 a pop to the vendors it almost seems irresistible. I purchased a spot for LadeeBee Supplies Handmade for four out of the five possible dates. Our next event, the Harvest Bazzar, is happening October 9th, 2010. The Bazaar is located on Queen Street West, near Lansdown-right next to the Public Library. If you are in Toronto make plans to check out the Harvest Bazaar.

Here is a look what I brought on August 14th, the last Bazaar:

My table. A very simple set up. No muss, no fuss. On this day my son helped me out from open 'till close! What a great kid!

Japanese paper under glass tile pendants. For $20 you purchase a little piece of wearable art, and that includes a silver plated snake chain!

I can never get enough of this paper. I just keep making and making and making these pendants. The glass is a nice way to showcase the beauty of these designs.

Some papers used for the pendants come from Italy and others are recycled out of date school atlases, like the pendant pictured below.

Places are very meaningful to people and carry lots of sentimental value. Many folks stopped by my table to see if I had a pendant of the place they are from, whether it be in Canada or abroad. I have lots from places all around the world, but Toronto is always the first to sell out.

Click on the pic of the maps to enlarge. See if you find a place that means something to you.

If you're not into rectangles I also have circles, well imperfect circles. The circles are handmade by another craftsperson. I really believe that there is something for everyone and people often pick one up as a gift.

Come and Join Button Fanatics!

2010-08-18T01:49:00.000-04:00

Not another Facebook group!
Oh yes indeed. This one is for fans of buttons or otherwise known as "Button Fanatics". Check out our group and share your photos of buttons, your projects with buttons, and especially any projects you've completed with LadeeBee Supplies buttons!

Currently LadeeBee Supplies is undergoing a little bit of a transformation and the site is being updated daily with new listings. LadeeBee's buttons are also available at Wise Daughters Craft Market in Toronto, Ontario, Canada.

Take a look at what I've just sent to Wise Daughters:

multi-packs are great for many crafting projects

who said all of your buttons need to match?

Delicious buttons in blue!

I adore these buttons pictured above. They are made out of nice quality vintage plastic. Chunky and bold!

These clear buttons pictured above are so cool with the green gems set right inside the plastic.

Here they are all together, the button family. Available this week at Wise Daughters. This just barely scratches the surface of my ever growing vintage button collection.

"The Graduate" Skinny Necktie Crochet Pattern

2010-07-08T11:09:00.002-04:00

This tie was made for my son's Grade 8 Graduation.

Materials
1 skein of Mica by Berroco (40g, 108y/100m, 31% cotton, 26% silk, 23% nylon, 20% linen)
4.5 mm crochet hook
3 mm crochet hook
yarn needle
measuring tape

Instructions
With 4.5mm crochet hook ch 8
Row 1: sc in second ch from hook and in the next 6 ch, ch 1, turn- 7 sc
Row 2: sc in each st across, ch 1, turn
Repeat row 2 until piece measures 4" from foundation ch
Decrease Row: sc in next 3 sc, sk 1 sc, sc in next 3 sc, ch1, turn - 6 sc
Continue to sc each row until piece measures 12" from foundation ch
Decrease Row: sc next 2 sc, sc 2tog, sc next 2 sc - 5 sc
Continue in patt until piece measures 18" from foundation ch
Decrease Row: sc next 2 sc, sk1 sc, sc next 2 sc, chain, turn - 4 sc
Continue in patt until piece measures 48" from foundation ch
Do not fasten off
Switch to 3 mm crochet hook
ch 1
now working along one side of the tie sc in each turning ch, in the back loops of the foundation ch and along the other side of the tie.
cut yarn, fasten off, weave in ends
block if desired

For insturctions on how to tie a tie click here. I prefer the Pratt Knot for this crochet tie.

Click on the images to get a better close-up look at the tie.

Japanese Paper Pendants On Zibbet

2010-06-18T12:34:00.000-04:00

Hello Craft Fans!
My Japanese paper under glass tile pendants are now available online in my Zibbet shop! This shop has been rededicated to handmade goods unrelated to the Vintage Baby Revival line. I have been bringing these fantastic little necklaces to shows with me for some time and they have been wildly popular. Affordable handmade now at your fingertips! Each pendant was carefully crafted with durability and maximum beauty in mind. Playing with Japanese paper is so much fun, and I won't be stopping any time soon, so look for more pendants to arrive each week!
--LadeeBee

The Montreal (Craft) Experience

2010-06-12T14:19:00.000-04:00

Last weekend was my whirlwind trip to Montreal for the Spring Puces Pop hand made marketplace. It was a fantastic trip and it provided me an opportunity to meet some great folks, to knit a little somethin' somethin' for myself, and to shop some products from great artisans.

My table neighbours were Coucou Salut, a fantastic little shop providing unique screen printed and hand crafted plush toys, cushions, coin purses, coasters, and tea towels. I picked up a tooth monster to give to my son.

I also met half the team behind one of my favorite Toronto shops, Bookhou. Bookhou is also a master at screen printing original designs on linens, sweet hand embroidery, and maker of stunning tote bags. I picked up a plush sparrow pin and a gently hand embroidered pin backed button.

I had an opportunity to try hand crafted edible treats as well. I brought home some creamy caramels, and mouth watering gluten free peanut butter cookies.

I picked up a wonderful print from Todd Stewart of Montreal. I highly recommend checking out his work!

On Sunday evening I had a chance to take a walk in the neighbourhood known as the Plateau district. I dined on Chicken Roti, fried plantain, and mango juice. Walked a few blocks to a book shop open late and picked up a sweet French language book called "Coeurs".

This book is full of the sweetest heart themed embroidery patterns. I couldn't resist purchasing it as it included a piece of canvas, embroidery needle, and DMC floss to get you started on a project right away.

I am working on the girl on the right.

So I flew home on Monday. The flight is just under 50min, however we were delayed 7 HOURS!! I worked on this sock the whole day, sipping Second Cup Coffee, Strawberry Chillers, and finally 3 glasses of red wine WHOO HOO!

Worked on 4 needles from the toe up.

The pattern I chose is the Dead Simple Lace Socks from "Socks form the Toe Up" by Wendy D. Johnson. I reduced the pattern by 1 repeat for this particular yarn because initially the socks were just coming out way too big. (thought that I DID check my guage, oh well)

Well, that pretty much concludes my show and tell from last weekend, hope you enjoyed ;)

Worldwide Knit in Public Day in West Toronto Junction

2010-06-03T09:48:00.002-04:00

The event will be taking place on Saturday June 12th from 1-4pm at Junction Square located at Dundas Street West and Pacific Avenue in Toronto. Bought my T-shirt for this event at Wise Daughters Craft Market. Hope to see you Toronto knitters there!

World Wide Knit in Public Day Postponed. Now happening Sunday June 13th 1-4. Help spread the word!

What is Making Me Happy-Right Now

2010-05-27T20:59:00.001-04:00

Lately I have had the urge to knit socks. I have not knit a pair of socks before, not because I thought I couldn't do it, I just felt that I would not have the patience to work with such light weight yarn. I grabbed some yarn from my stash and got to work on a basic sock pattern I found on Ravelry. I knit up one sock in two days and started the second. I still have that second sock on the needles 'cause I have been pretty busy with work knitting, so it'll be on hold. For now I am really enjoying checking out the array of hand dyed sock yarns on Etsy.

Have a look with me at some of my favorites:

Black Sheep Dyeworks Superwash Merino Wool in Aegean Multi

Yarnbreath's Merino Silk sockweight yarn

Colorful Yarn Creation's Aztec fingering weight yarn

Fibre Optic's Radio No. 61 Traditional Hand Paint Foot Notes Sock Yarn

Grant Creek Yarn's Persimmon Hand Dyed Fingering (Sock) Yarn, Superwash Merino Wool and Nylon

Lampyridae's Alpaca/Cashmere/Silk sock yarn

Knitting Like Crazy's Witchy Superwash Merino Sock Yarn

Hope you enjoyed!

-LadeeBee

So What is Depression Anyway?

2010-05-27T19:45:00.000-04:00

Well first of all I am not a clinician. I am not a doctor or therapist. I am an individual that has a diagnosis of depression and has received treatment and I would say is in "recovery". Depression is something I will always have to watch out for. It is a serious medical condition.
Our minds and bodies are not separate, they are connected and so depression is not a weakness or a character flaw, it is in the biology. Clinical Depression is an illness, like cancer, or lupis, or any other physical illness. It took me a while to accept this.
Depression sucks because it is an extremely isolating condition. When you are depressed the last thing you want to do is call up a friend and talk about it. You lose the interest in getting together with others and interest in the things that you usually like to do.
Negative thoughts are a biggie for people with depression. These thoughts tend to spiral downward and get really dark. They can be self deprecating. For example, you think your coworkers gossip about you at lunch, that you always look fat, and you can't do anything right.
Suicidal thoughts can enter into these persistent streams of negative thoughts. I always thought thinking about suicide is normal, but it isn't. Most people don't walk around feeling like they want to kill themselves. This is a sign of something serious going on and it is a huge indicator that you need help. Suicidal thoughts run the gamut. They can be something like "I want to jump in front of the next subway train" or "I wonder what would happen if I took this bottle of pills?" If you are thinking of harming yourself you need to get help now.
Sleeping A LOT or sleeping hardly at all. Both signs that something isn't quite right. Also, having little energy. Is it a fight just to walk up the stairs or make a meal? You may have the other end of the spectrum by having too much energy and feel like you are always geared up.
Another difficult symptom of depression is a drop in self care. When depression comes the last thing we do is take care of ourselves. We may be able to feed our kids and make sure they have clean clothes, but for us it is hard to take a shower, brush teeth, comb hair. Everything is a chore!
Depression can also manifest itself in physical pain or symptoms. These can include headaches, stomache pain or digestive upset, sore muscles, body aches. This isn't an exhaustive list, but you get the idea. For more on the symptoms of depression click here
Also, depression has a spectrum. A person can have varying degrees in the severity of the symptoms. I would say if you think your life has changed, that you are not feeling like the person you know you are, if the changes in your behavior have made your life more difficult to live then it would be worth looking into and getting help. And, as I said before suicidal thoughts, or attempting suicide is a strong warning to you that you need help.
These are the things I have learned about depression since getting treatment for it myself. I will say that it is difficult to deal with, but not impossible. My doctor told me that I don't have to feel this way. When I heard that I knew that I wanted to not feel so bad and decided to submit to some form of treatment. Today I feel a lot better. I am not so hard on myself and every day is a day I want to be alive for.

For more help with depression please find out about the resources in your area.

Treating My Depression Through Craft

2010-05-19T18:06:00.001-04:00

When I began this blog my intention was to write about how craft helped pull me out of depression and became an essential part of my treatment as well as my ongoing emotional and mental health. I guess I realized I didn't really feel like writing about my struggles while going through them and it was much more productive to concentrate on the stuff I love and post about that.

I have a sneaking suspicion that many of you out there struggle with depression, mood disorders, or life situations that get you down. I feel without my craft, my hobbies I would be lost and perhaps this describes you as well. I have been thinking more and more how I could publish something on this blog that would be of benefit to the readers (if you are out there) and I have something in the works.

You're not alone, though depression is an extremely isolating condition. We have to learn how to take care of ourselves and to battle the negative thoughts and moods that seem to overwhelm us. No matter if you have been through depression in the past, are currently experiencing it, have had a lifelong battle with it, or you are in the dark about your condition my hope is that the postings contained within this blog will be a source of hope, inspiration, commiseration, and a place to reflect.

LadeeBee- She is sometimes sad, but not always.

Athabasca Spring Scarf Knitting Pattern

2010-05-03T20:49:00.002-04:00

This lightweight spring/summer scarf is named for the Athabasca River, which can be seen clearly from the air as one arrives to the well-known oil town, Fort McMurray, Alberta. I began knitting this scarf just before my journey up to the northern Alberta town and completed it while there visiting my mother. The colours that appear in these sumptuous yarns remind me of hues of green and blue that can be seen from the airplane window high above the town. It is beautifully stunning countryside!

Materials
Yarn A: 1 skein of Punta Cotton Hand Paint Colour Hp10 (100 % cotton/ 214 meters, 235 yards/ 100 grams)
Yarn B: 1 skein of Nuna by Mirasol Shade 1017 (40% wool, 40% silk, 20% bamboo/175 meters, 191 yards/ 50 grams)
1 pair of 6mm knitting needles

Notes
This pattern is really all about the yarn. If you choose beautiful yarns, your scarf will look amazing! This pattern is very simple and is great for beginners or experienced knitters that want a great pattern to sit and relax with.
Yarn B will be carried along the side when you knit the rows of yarn A. Just simply wrap A and B around one another when you carry B so that yarn B is hugged more tightly to the edge of the scarf thus diminishing the appearance of a loop.

Instructions
With A CO 47 sts
Row 1-3: k
Row 4: With B *k1, yo twice, k1* repeat to end
Row 5: continuing with B *k1, slip 2 yo off needle, k1* repeat to end
Row 6-9: with A k 4 rows
Row 10: with B *k1, yo, k1* repeat to end
Row 11: continuing with B *k1, slip yo off needle, k1* repeat to end
Repeat Rows 1-11 until your yarn is nearly finished. End with 3 knit rows in yarn A. BO loosely and weave in ends.

Quilting Up North

2010-04-17T07:03:00.001-04:00

In Northern Alberta there is an oil town called Ft. McMurray. The list of reasons for going to Ft. McMurray is short- to make money. People from all over the country and probably North America come to Ft. McMurray to make their tidy little fortune working in the oil sands, or 7-Eleven. Even gas station attendants make $18-$20/ hr. Sounds tempting, n'est pas? Well, there is a bit of a trade off. Like the freeze your ass off temps, the lack of stuff to do, and the dismal man-made landscape.
Ft Mac is smack dab in the Boreal Forest and rests beside the point of two converging rivers. The natural landscape is stunning. Unfortunately there is not much that is "nice" or "interesting-in-a-good-way" about the town. I don't want to dump too much on Ft. McMurray as there is a community of people that live there, but even they admit that it isn't much of a place to call home.
I visited the Northern Alberta town recently to visit my Mum. She is not an oil worker, but makes more than she ever has in her life as part of the management team at a major Canadian discount retailer in the shopping mall. She works long, hard hours and earns every penny of that salary.
While she had to work I found my little oasis in an otherwise culturally deserted town. I found Suzy Q's Quilt Shop by doing some online research. All I came up with was the name and address of the shop, not even a photo. This shop is located in the downtown core and has a very unassuming store front. Also, it was a short walk from my Mum's place-though my Mum did offer to leave work and drive me there. Of the seven days in Ft. Mac I was at Suzy Q's three. Here is a tour of the shop:

I especially love the way the dragonfly's wings are stitched.

Quilting Kits

Natural Resources

Wool for needle felting, spinning, wet felting. Suzy Q's also has yarn and other knitting supplies, embroidery patterns, and beads.

This is the owner. She called this machine her "baby".

The ample workspace. My stuff is the second table from the right. I brought my knitting to work on.

I actually really liked this fabric. I am very attracted to orange and green. This fabric went 50% off in the boss is away sale over Easter Weekend.

A quilt hanging out in the work room.

Some photos of my latest additions to my fabric stash. As mentioned before there was a 50% off sale on some of the fabric. The fabric I really liked was included! What luck!! On Saturday everyone got a plastic egg with an additional secret discount tucked inside. My additional discount was 15%. This lot of fat quarters only cost me $22. A steal!!!

I adore the colour and pattern on this fabric. I picked up two versions of it. First of all I am attracted to circles and secondly I am am attracted to leaves.

Well, that concludes my tour of Suzy Q's Quilt Shop in Ft. McMurray, Alberta. Happy quilting and crafting.

Spring Knits for Baby Giveaway

2010-03-24T13:20:00.004-04:00

Just added some new items to my shop on Etsy. Knits aren't just for winter and knitting isn't strictly a winter activity. There are plenty of beautiful things to knit all year round. Just check out the latest issue of Knitty for some free spring worthy patterns. There are lots of fibres out there to explore like silk, bamboo, linen, hemp, and cotton. So keep knitting and enjoy these pics of my latest additions to Vintage Baby Revival!

Just for fun...I am going to do a little giveaway! Want to win a pair of booties like the ones pictured above? Visit my shop and tell me what you like the best by commenting to this post below. I will randomly select one winner from the list and announce the winner on Saturday April 24th right here! If you would like to receive extra entries share about Vintage Baby Revival on your blog, Facebook, or Twitter and post about it in the comments section below.
ps booties can be custom made for the winner for boy, girl, or gender neutral up to size 12 months!!!

A winner has been chosen for the spring knits for baby giveaway. Congratulations to Kimberly!

I randomly selected your name from the four eligible responses to this post by way of a draw "oooooo"
Kimberly we'll talk so I can get the size and colour of booties you prefer.

My Workspace In 2010

2010-03-17T13:20:00.000-04:00

My Passap Duomatic 80, double bed, standard guage knitting machine. This machine is not yet functional, but pretty soon I am going to undertake a deep cleaning of this machine. I found an excellent resource to assist me with this online.

My Brother Sewing and Embroidery Machine. I purchased this baby from Craigslist. It was in very new condition and once I figured it out it was a dream to use. I actually got the hang of threading the machine so that the thread went through the needle on its own...cooool.

What's on my walls. "Mother" poster by Nikki McClure. Amy Butler fabric wall pocket for my shipping envelopes, made from pattern out of One Yard Wonders. Bird Illustration by my friend and fellow Etsian, Kristina Baker of Greasy Chicken Face, and "Tiny Dancer Print" by Orange Willow.

Just the beginning of my yarn collection. Tons of mission falls cotton, Patons SWS, Phildar Cotton 10, handpainted cotton, and a pair of wooden legs from a knitting factory in Hamilton, Ontario. These drawers contain the buttons in my shop, business cards, stenciling supplies, ziplock bags for buttons and necklaces, my 'zines, more yarn and fabric.

Knitting needles I use in my classes and some embroidery yarn I purchased at Value Village.

Creatography- Creativity and Photography: What Can I Do With All Those Pictures?

2010-03-09T11:21:00.003-05:00

A while back I posted "Photography 101" on my blog discussing my excitement over the class I was enrolled in on photography through the Toronto Board of Education. I tried to stick it out for the full 10 weeks, but unfortunately after only 3 or 4 classes I stopped going. I was not happy with the instruction I was getting (or lack thereof) and decided I'd be much happier discovering photography through practice and informal learning-like checking out cool blogs and looking at the photos of others.

Since then I have opened a Flickr account. You can see my widget in the right hand side of this page. Mostly my photos are shots of my buttons and crafts and from time to time I try to take some interesting shots around my city (like the one above taken near a local high school).

I thought I would share with my readers what I have discovered so far since taking up more of an interest in photography and craft.

Taken near Dundas West Subway Station, Toronto, Ontario

Photojojo-kick ass tips on what you can do with all those photos you've accumulated and of course how to take more interesting ones in the future. I have subscribed to their newsletter and about every week or so they give you a free idea on a project, craft, product, or tip to keep you interested in the fun that is photography. Oh yes, and I highly recommend their new book!
Flickr-okay, so most people on "discovered" this site before me, but for those of you who still don't know what they are missing, please head on over and visit. I grabbed a free account and once I am full up I am seriously considering getting a pro account for a mere $25/year. I enjoy looking at pics of things I am interested in. There are groups you can join and submit your own photos to for sharing. It is fun to comment and to favorite and to have others comment and favorite your photos too. Best of all I find the site inspiring. You'll discover what is the most weird as well as the most wonderful elements of our planet.
MOO-a site that uses your own photos to create show stopping business cards or cards to save and trade...I just purchased a set of 50 cards (I only paid shipping on this offer) and I am so looking forward to receiving them. I suggest poking around the site to see it for yourself.
Cre8tive Gang-an amazing blog for down to earth tips and inspiration for your photo craft endeavours. There is so much to discover on this site and it is clear that for the Cre8tive gang, photography is truly a passion. They stress that anyone can take great shots!

Photo taken at a shop in my community called Smash.

Share your creatography with me by posting comments below.

A Journey Into Hand Spinning

2010-03-08T15:39:00.002-05:00

I have recently had the urge to try a little bit of hand spinning with a drop spindle. I am so busy knitting and crocheting I find it difficult to put down the needles or hook to do much of anything else, including reading the new book I bought by Wally Lamb. Just before Christmas I purchased a kit at the City of Craft sale in Toronto. It came with what appeared to be Kool Aid dyed roving, a drop spindle and a few sheets of printed details. While I didn't find the sheets to be very helpful in the instructions department, it was a pretty good deal for the kit at $16. I ended up looking on YouTube to find out how to go about taking up hand spinning. My favorite instructor by far was Abby Franquemont. She is also the author of Respect the Spindle.

I completed my first hand spun ball of yarn.

You can see it is thick and then thin...not at all my intention...but not bad for my first. I am just amazed it looks like yarn at all!

Then I decided it was time to dye the yarn myself and spin it. I looked up kits on Etsy and found one in a Chandler, Arizona shop called Wind Rose Fiber Studio. I received the most luscious merino wool and three dyes in the colours I specified. I was so excited when I received it in the mail!

There was also a free sample or Firestar (on the left) that was generously included.

And here is the resulting yarn, dyed and spun.

I chose three colours to dye with: alphalpha, mustard, and pacific. In essence blue, yellow and green. What I didn't think about was "what do you get when you mix yellow and blue?" So a lot of

green resulted from the process. I am happy with the way it turned out though. Quite beautiful!

So what next? Owning my own alpaca? angora? like this blogger? Tabitha Webber, a fellow fibre enthusiast is seriously considering taking the next big leap! You may be interested in reading about her journey. While I may not be on the same page as Tabitha right now I can see something down the way in my future. I have daydreams about owning my own alpacas too, but until then I am happy to get my hands on that delicious fibre and spin to my heart's content.

Did You Know That You Can Zibbet?

2010-03-08T11:20:00.001-05:00

What is Zibbet? It is a new marketplace to sell your handmade goods online. Currently this rad new site is in its infancy and this is just the perfect time to get in on it. I find Zibbet to be an incredible place to sell my buttons and I was able to take advantage of a great promotion on a premium account. For $7/month I get unlimited listings and no commission is taken on my sales. You can stock up your shop without any fear of what's to come when you open your bill at the end of the month, it is always the same! Also, the team at Zibbet is really tuned in to what the sellers want and work hard to meet those needs so your shop can be all you want it to be. Grab a premium account for yourself while it is still $7/ month because in a couple of weeks it is going up to $15/month.